It has been brought to my attention a couple months ago that all I do is complain.
Well, it sucks to hear constructive criticism but you aren’t wrong.
I am working on my negative aspect to the life I have and the blessings in my life. Please bear with me readers. I am on the verge of explaining my therapeutic epiphany.
My job sucks. If you have been following my ramblings for awhile this, I’m positive that you have already deduced this. I usually preach to friends seeking life-changing advice that if they do not like something that they should find the courage within to change it.
I can’t quit my job yet. I signed my life away almost 5 years ago. I have exactly 671 days left until the end of my enlistment contract. Instead of focusing on how long I have left, I am trying to focus on the job at hand and what I can do to make it better. I like to help people. I am using the time I have left to be the best I can at my job. By reaching for this goal, I am helping my coworkers complete the Air Force mission.
See what I just did there? I am trying to make a shit sandwich be more appealing. Yeah, I still need to work on a more tasteful approach but hey, at least I am trying.
I blog because I am my most vulnerable when I write. My writing is a glimpse into the conundrum that is my brain and I pour my unfiltered heart into it. I am not the best writer in the world. I don’t really have faithful followers.
I just write. Then I post it.
I get a few views and the occasional comment.
I appreciate it all. It makes my small corner of the world that much bigger.
It makes me feel special when my husband reads my blog. I don’t always communicate my thoughts as raw and honest as I do when I write. Sometimes, it’s easier to write about it and then talk about it.
I keep a list on my phone about various topic ideas that I have. I wait until I feel inspired to write. I maintain a journal. I challenge myself to write about the blessings, the curses and the struggle of it all. I write with an honest heart and it helps me grow as a person.
So if you are reading this, thank you. Feel free to follow, like or comment. Or don’t. I don’t need the reassurance. As long as I am writing, I am getting the clarity I need in this world.
The blog is my open journal. I don’t want to forget my life journey.
That is why I write.