Have you ever noticed that it takes so little to be considered a good father and so little to be considered a bad mother? Well, I have and it frustrates me. My husband is a good father but it isn't because he does the bare minimum. He doesn't "watch (or babysit) the baby", he takes … Continue reading The double standard for Parents
Time Flies

My husband's unit threw a baby shower for us on October 5th. I was able to get off work a little early. I felt so blessed that someone would throw us a baby shower. I was afraid that no one would show up. Thankfully, a lot of people showed up and we were wonderfully blessed … Continue reading Time Flies
The end draws near
Today, I am 38 weeks pregnant. I can't wait to hold my child for the first time and never be pregnant again. This pregnancy has been a rough one. I've struggled with anxiety, insomnia and depression the entire time. I also had morning sickness the entire time. The doctors I have seen haven't been very … Continue reading The end draws near
Living with your parents
How old were you when you moved out of your parent's house? I was recently talking to some senior leadership and surprised when I was told that someone moving out of their parent's house at the age that I did and the reason not be because of college (that the parent's were paying for) or … Continue reading Living with your parents
Thoughts on some parenting theories
I know what kind of parent I don't want to be. I don't want to be the parent that has kids that sleep in my bed every night. I just don't. I think that it raises kids that are needy and whiney. I want my child to sleep in their bed every night, and for … Continue reading Thoughts on some parenting theories
A Brave Decision
I am a resilient woman but I haven't been feeling like myself for a long time. My biggest weakness is the inability to accept when I need help and seek it out. I don't want to appear to be weak, irresponsible, stupid or crazy. I have been feeling down for a long time now. Since … Continue reading A Brave Decision
Walking away Numb
I have a big heart and I like to help out people. I struggle with saying "no" to people. That trait makes me prone to being taken advantage of. I had a phenomenal best friend, well I thought I did. I truly believed that her and I would remain friends for all time and that … Continue reading Walking away Numb
Mother’s Day 2018
Today is my first Mother's Day. Well, it kinda is. I am 18 weeks pregnant with our first and probably only child. I don't think this really counts as my first Mother's Day because I haven't actually given birth, but my husband has celebrated it for me anyways. There are a lot of opinions out … Continue reading Mother’s Day 2018
Retraining Update #6

I made the mistake of getting my hopes up and trusting that AFPC and the CFM could not rescind an approved retraining decision. I think that I will be getting out of the military in the next few months. I feel like I got screwed over and attacked. I can get out of the military … Continue reading Retraining Update #6
Reflection of a memory…

It feels like I have known my husband forever. I love him more that I have ever loved anyone in my life. This photo is from 2016. I had surprised Matt with a horseback riding adventure with Andy's Trail Rides in Rapid City, SD for the 4th of July weekend. He was a little nervous … Continue reading Reflection of a memory…